Alright, so I was being considered up until the last second. I finally got my last dejection, I mean rejection, email last night. I still haven't heard back from Penn State, but since they haven't even interviewed me, I'm not holding my breath. I was heartbroken for all of about 4 hours last night. I started to cheer up at crossfit this morning. Nothing like a good butt kicking to make yourself feel better. Plus I got to talk with one of the ER docs and he's already promising a stellar letter of recommendation. A small step in the right direction also makes a big difference. I'm still not exactly skipping, but at least now I'm seeing the good sides, such as:
Getting a year off from school before I give up what remains of my social life.
Having time to be a raft guide again this summer.
Not being a complete basket case for at least three months (until the process starts all over again).
At least knowing and being able to make decisions about my life.
The one MAJOR downside to not getting into CU is that I have to undergo the whole application process again, in which I shell out a few more thousand dollar, write a million essays baring my soul to complete strangers for judgement, and have to deal with the stress for months. At least CU offers something that no other medical school does. I get to schedule an appointment to find out the weaknesses in my application. That way I can improve on the areas they find lacking. I don't know why more schools don't offer this feedback, but I'm glad I have it available.
The next step: figure out what to do with the next year of my life. And, yes, Brownie, I know that Baby Dolls is hiring. :P Real input would be more helpful.